Watching My Energy

It wasn't lost on me that I have a talk coming up tomorrow at the CCALAC HIT Summit, yet I have hardly given it much thought all week. I haven't even checked on any of the logistics yet. I figured all that stuff had already been emailed to me yet I haven't checked. And I wasn't really all that worried aobut it really. Instead my attention this morning was squarely on the thought of moving back to the FRB, first with my team and figuring out what our next steps are, and then with my boss Dennis, asking him what in the heck is going on. He seemed blindsided about it and although we are getting lots of push from Barbara, it was notable that we were not getting any push from anyone else on the Leadership Team. And certainly from talking to Dennis, I'm pretty sure she's the only one with a hankering to go back to the office on January 3. And we don't even know what that means anyway, going back. Is it back for good, back part time? what? It was notable that in the middle of talking about it with my team and with Dennis and watching some negative energy well enough, I got a personal delivery of a holiday basket from one of my vendors. Or should I say a vendor we used to work with that I don't even work with anymore. I mean I got wine and cheese from San Antonio winery. Pretty snazzy. And something I need to be grateful for to be sure. Anyway the consensus between Dennis and I was that we take small steps forward towards moving back but nothing is in rock just yet. I mean I can at least document what needs to happen for IT to be ready again. I can do that. Even if I don't have to do it with a sense of urgency LOL LOL. So this being Thursday and this being the new busy day, the morning was spent doing team meetings and then after that, after a lunch from Taco Bell <yep that is as random as it sounds>, I tanked the rest of the day. 

The rest of the afternoon was spent watching the latest episode of Hawkeye. It was just ok for me... I don't even know why Kate Bishop is important in the series. Maybe it's just that the individual stories of the Avengers and other members of the MCU isn't as interesting. The Falcon and the Winter Soldier did stick with me. This one and Loki, not so much. Not nearly like the Mandalorian which we're all still waiting for. Anyway the rest of the afternoon was spent tanked on the couch until it was time to get Johnnie from school. And after I picked him up we went on to Mitsuwa to get some udon and tempura shrimp for Johnnie, and some pork katsu over rice for me. See the picture with his green band allowing him to eat inside. Kind of a hoot really. The day started a little drizzly and with some chance of rain, but the chance is now at zero for tonight. And of course this being Thursday we wait for Lisa to call about Johnnie and what mood she was going to be in. It was set up as an uneventful pick up, and I should have known better. There's always something. And tonight, it was the knots on Claire's fur. As in why was there any I guess? The answer was because I didn't brush her enough and I didn't care to. No I didn't give a shit. And so Lisa had an energy of irritation as she took off for home. I tried to reiterate plans for Saturday as I have a cleaning while also trying to cook for their turkey lunch. All that went over Lisa's head of course as if she didn't care. OK then. I couldn't let whatever energy she had affect me. I still had to rehearse for tomorrow's presentation. And rehearse I did. I did the whole deal in about 45 minutes. Just about the right time with a 10-minute Q&A. I think I'm good. No need to go again. I remember rehearsing at least 3 times when I did the Vegas talk. Not tonight. There's no need. Better to get some sleep It's all good.