Catch up Saturday

Usually Saturday mornings when Lisa isn't working - like today - is now part of the Johnnie routine too. But not today. She made plans to spend time with a friend who has kids at the library. I'm thinking it's just an attempt to hang out with said friend and the kids who do know each other since they all go to Mar Vista Elem. And I was ok with that since I had spent a lot more time with Johnnie last week than usual. And anyway I thought this was a good time to catch up. Already I started to go back to some affirmations that I had recorded, partly to combat negative feelings and feelings of fear and lack that popped up when I heard some news about the stock market tanking and the crypto market tanking as well.  All circumstance. And a definite test to see how I would handle it. When pushed from the outside, you go inside and consolidate your power. That is how I handled it. And the thing was I also ran into this article on the VERGE about Kat Norton an Excel tik toker selling courses online. And making 6 figures a month doing it! And she says she manifested this, utilizing techniques from Dr. Joe Dispenza <Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself> and a manifestation coach named Lacy Phillips with a program called TO BE MAGNETIC. She used words like energy and manifestation just like I want to, at least more often than I like. And I realize that the difference between her and me was simply that she was more consistent with her practice than I am. And that she learned to build her TRUST MUSCLES and her magnetism muscles as well. Sounds simple when you say it. But this is no different than training for running really. You start small, you build up and then you achieve this amazing result(s). And so today is one of those days that I am motivated once more to work on this. 

I naturally had to look at the Lacy Phillips stuff and unsurprisingly, she had LOTS of content on YouTube. Same stuff really but she had a nice easy way of describing energetics and law of attraction in such a way that it is systematic no different than how a physician talks about your physical self and the physical chemistry system. And so with that, I spent the morning gravitating between LOA stuff on YouTube - of course there is a course you have to pay for but you know, I have come to realize that all this information is already out there and in fact already in my possession and I don't have to purchase anything new. Just to study and apply. Study and apply. Do the work. No more satisfaction with just talking about it and talking up a good game, but actually doing it. THAT is what I have to work on and release don't I? And so I spent the morning doing errands too. Lots of clutter in my apartment, all these Johnnie clothes I have to give to the Salvation army. That's the kind of energy I have to release as well.  And true to my emotional pull, I also made a trip to Mitsuwa busy as it was to get Lisa ramen noodles and tofu. I was going to do one errand to the next. Like... go to Mitsuwa, get gas, drop off Lisa's stuff. And then I got stopped there because Lisa and Johnnie were just getting going to go to the library. It was well past noon already. Man I could have spent the morning with Johnnie after all. Hey, at least I got to see him for all of 2 minutes today right? Just Lisa being Lisa. She mentioned something about maybe having dinner tonight but I shrugged it off inside. I know she probably wouldn't be home on time for that. And so I kept on with my errands. Groceries.  Whole Foods.  Trader Joe's. Laundry.  I still have to get my exchange gift present for Monday's holiday party. And I definitely want to get a jump on all the work stuff I need to finish by Monday. I did get all the payroll done. And I stopped long enough to see how I was clanging myself from one thing to the next. Losing my focus on the way. It got too late to drop off the clothes to Salvation Army. They had closed. It was already dark. The day went by already.  Nothing left to think about but dinner. Hey I still have last week's ground beef. So I made myself a mish mash casserole with carrots, celery, raisins, even bok choy, cranberries. Sort of ended up tasting like that Moroccan dish I tried to do. It was all good though. Except for the part where I binge watched the series SEE on Apple TV with Jason Momoa all the way to 1:30 AM. Damn. Why'd I do that?