Work Work Work

It's a short week this week, considering the off-day yesterday. But it's also Tech Council Meeting week, which means it's going to be a pretty busy first part of the week. And it got busier by mid-day as now my boss Eloisa is needing to meet with me regarding Data needs. Specifically clinical data needs. That would be Dr Liao of course who doesn't really reach out to me. Everyone else pretty much yags on my chain at their whim. Not him. So therein might already lie the answer. Doctors... roll my eyes. And of course I am much more focused on Johnnie's classes and his schoolwork this morning, with a particular emphasis on Social Studies since it is the day before the inauguration of Joe Biden as the next President of the United States. I had to laugh when one of the kids mentioned Trump playing golf. I have no comments whatsoever. So I had my usual Tuesday morning meeting with my crew and then I had to get on my Tech Council presentation for tomorrow. At least I got the meeting minutes done last night. But I still had to catch up. The thing that helps me feel reassured is that I ALWAYS without exception get this thing done although I wanted to do it without staying up until the wee hours in the morning to finish. In the meantime, I posted a couple of pictures of Johnnie today because frankly, it IS what is helping me keep my sanity. How can you not feel glad when you hear him sing the Winnie the Pooh and Tigger too song. He put such an effort into writing out the song first and then actually singing it. And so I did make sure he had all his homework assignments and classwork all done before lunchtime. By mid-afternoon, I had a huge chunk of my presentation all done and I will admit I was basically trying to pad the thing so I had an hour's worth of material. By that time I still managed to be way ahead of my steps routine and so I let Johnnie burn up his immense amount of energy with his karate class. I'll admit he's picking it up pretty nicely and he's actually learning to kick and hit with some force. So much so I'm now repeating that he needs to use it for self-defense ONLY. At the end of the day I still had to stay up until well past midnight to finish my presentation. But only because I kept distracting myself with a bunch of things. "What's going on with the Presidential inauguration tomorrow?" "Are Trump's idiot supporters going to come up with more disruptive shit?" He's clearly being his usual asshole self with respect to leaving the White House and he's been so unpredictable you never know what he's plotting. You KNOW he's plotting something. He's incapable of accepting he lost the election. But enough of him, tomorrow hopefully his spell of holding the entire nation in his attention grip will finally start fading. Or so we hope, most of us anyway. I did want to continue some momentum towards my internal work and towards that end, at least I was able to do some nice meditation this morning when I first woke up. I think the key is follow-up and actually paying attention to messages the Universe has for me. Hard to hear these messages when I allow myself to be distracted, or I allow myself to give in to negative feelings that feed my anxiety, impatience that feeds my irritability. Hey if I work on those negative feelings alone it would be an even more productive day indeed. As it were, I deemed myself ready for tomorrow's meeting and I deemed myself ok to deal with whatever is coming up in terms of Data. I think it's just me feeding into my own feelings of inadequacy about that. I just need to put just a little bit more effort into making sure eveyone knows all this data is already available. It was 1 AM by the time I crawled into bed and fell asleep. I guess I don't get 6+ hours of sleep tomorrow. And that's ok. I'll catch up after tomorrow...