Golf Sunday at Altadena

My autopilot self got up from the couch at 7:15 AM this morning threw on my blue shorts anticipating that it was going to be a warm day and headed out the door by 7:30 not really even fully awake. I had uneven sleep last night and I knew this because I didn't feel rested when I woke up. Or maybe it's simply because I WAS on autopilot. Autopilot me went to get Earl Grey hot tea and a breakfast sandwich from Starbucks and made my way to Altadena Golf Course by 8:05 AM. I had reminded myself of two things this morning (1) to remember to slow down my swing (2) remember to visualize a good outcome with my shot. I think I should have redone the 2nd reminder to something more broader... as in visualize afterwards feeling satisfied that I had a good game. But that insight came too late. In the meantime my enjoy-the-moment came right on the first tee as we were about to tee off. We were serenaded by this little bird seemingly watching us from the chain link fence right next to the tee box. Something to be grateful for already. Regardless of how my golf game went today. A good thing too because the golf game... well, let's just say that the late insight came BECAUSE. At least I did a little better than last week but that's because last week's game was just plain putrid. Today I at least had some really nice shots off the tee. But I never did make the right adjustments on my irons from the fairway. And from the tee for that matter. I was always yanking it way left or hitting it short. Whatever it was I did not let the shot find me and instead let my monkey mind continue with its program of mediocre play. Hole 1 - great shot off the tee, short from the fairway and left, missed the putt finished with a 6. Hole 2 - great shot off the tee, shanked from the fairway, 2 short irons, missed the putt, finished with a 6. Hole 3 - decent shot off the tee, 2nd shot well short and left AGAIN, 3-putted for another 6. See the pattern? I never did hit a par today and that continues my streak for another week of no pars. Oh well, at least it was another nice day out today and it actually got so warm I was sweating by the time we got done. And I got to play with Scott and Greg again, now becoming a weekly social interaction for me during these times of isolation and staying at home mostly. 

On the way home I made a pit stop at Ralphs, because I was craving some fresh-squeezed juice and decided that instead of getting salmon kabobs and rice at Crimson and pay $20, I'd get salmon right there at Ralphs and eat the leftover rice from last night and pay $5 LOL. And so it was that I had some nice grilled salmon for lunch (see picture) that I cooked myself. And made myself some fried rice to boot. I was all set to simply have lunch and take my afternoon nap. Except that my mind seemed more restless than usual. And although I did lie down, I don't think I got full sleep. At least Fitbit didn't think so although I think I was at Alpha or near-Theta at least for a good half hour. I didn't really push myself to do much of anything for the afternoon, since tomorrow I have the day off for MLK holiday. I did find my way to going through a bunch of stock trading videos all over YouTube and I just let myself run with that. After all, I do feel like I need to at least put my stockpile of money into something so that it will grow just like my 403B did. And I won't be able to hit a high growth and high profit activity if I let my money sit on the sidelines wouldn't i? First I need to shake off a little fear residue. Then get myself in the game. I couldn't help but think it is a lot like my golf. Although to be clear, to get really better at golf, I have to be playing it more than the once a week on Sunday that I already do. That sort of came out as a revelation too. And so I need to practice at stock trading as well. Stuff to do. For dinner I made myself some nice beef stew, and did it differently than I would usually do. I used sweet potato and I made myself some biscuits as well. Mmmm. A fine fine dinner that made. And I threw on some Teddy Pendergrass, some old school R&B on Alexa. Hmm.. what is my insides leading me to? Some female companionship who would appreciate such things perhaps. Smiles. I mean couldn't very be all alone forever right? Stuff to do.