What A Crappy Golf Game I Had!

Today we're headed to Eaton Canyon for golf Sunday. And even though an 8:40 AM tee time meant no sleeping in, I was happy to get out early for golf. I had a pretty bad game last week from a scoring standpoint, but I did have enough good shots that I was still fairly satisfied. I looked forward to doing better today. And it was a nice warm day for starters. So much so I didn't have to wear my vest at 8:30 AM. Mind you my left arm was still sore from the vaccine shot last Friday but not enough to not play golf today. I didn't think it bothered me enough and I have certainly played with more pain and soreness than I was feeling this morning. What it does though is give me an excuse for not playing well today because I most certainly did not. In fact, I played like shit right from the beginning. Last week I remember hitting a lot of shots really well. Today I'll just say I can't remember one shot that I hit well the ENTIRE game. From the first tee shot I was either way off to the right or way off to the left. So nothing straight came off the tee today and I never made any adjustments the entire day. It did feel like I was short-arming my shots and not getting any extension on my swing. And of course at least last week I was getting to the greens in short order. Not today. On Hole 3 I gave up altogether since my shot didn't clear the fence, and neither did the 2 shots after that. Sigh. The best chance I had for a par was Hole 5. I shanked it short but I did get to the green on the 2nd shot. Then I proceeded to miss the long putt pretty badly. I finally hit the ball well on the short Hole 8, but it hit a tree and again, although I landed the ball just short of the green on the 2nd shot, my putting game couldn't help me. All I came home with on this day were pretty pictures of what kind of a nice day it was. See the pic of Hole 6 in particular. Because I was missing wildly i did not pause to see the beautiful view of the trees and the mountains until we were already leaving the hole, myself in an exasperated mood.  At least we did get some nice exercise out and we did finish before 11 AM and I was home by 11:45 and already eating my salmon kabobs lunch from Crimson. And I did knock off for a good hour-long nap afterwards. I woke up just in time to notice that there was a dustbin in the garbage room, which I took back to my apartment and cleaned up the outside patio area. Hadn't cleaned up that area since I moved in! That would be 2 1/2 years. Man it was so dusty. So much so I was sneezing like crazy for a good hour afterwards. I also ended up throwing away those Puma suede sneakers that had been my favorite for years! And all the garden stuff I brought back from Lisa's house when I moved out had cobwebs all over them LOL. Gonna need a good rainstorm to actually wash out the space but that's ok. And apparently that won't be coming this week. And so it was that I spent my Sunday night mulling about my crappy golf game and what I needed to do to do better. After all, I see my golf as a microcosm of what is going on and what I need to do internally. Maybe I was truly thrown off balance by all the Lisa interaction from yesterday. That is to say, I ALLOWED myself to get thrown off balance and that I needed to do some centering exercises to get back to centeredness. The cleaning opportunity in my outdoor patio area said as much. In the end I watched the Lakers beat Houston and then had a pizza from Pizza Hut for dinner, as I was in no mood to cook anymore even though I had plenty of food in the fridge. I also talked myself into finally finishing the one task I needed to do from Friday for work, which was to do my Quarterly Report. AND I did almost get caught up on my journal entries. And I did finish my laundry.  When I did that, there went any more anxiety as well. And I was able to literally cruise the rest of the evening away. It had been a pretty activity-filled weekend, which is to say I saw more people in the last 3 days and socialized more than I usually do. Which is probably why I still don't think I got enough decompression to get my balance back. But at least I could get a good night's sleep right?