Friday Anxiety

So it's Friday and though I had some decent sleep for the first time without Johnnie and Claire all week, I had lingering anxiety which had been the case all week long. I'd like to think it was because it was Tech Council Meeting week. But by today, I should have been in breathe out mode already. But I wasn't. Instead I'm getting up early getting Johnnie his Daily Pass. AND trying to get a tee time for the following Sunday. AND STILL I got a phone call from Lisa asking to resend the Daily Pass because they wouldn't accept the one I texted her. That one didn't have his name on it. Sigh.  I wanted today to be like last Friday. A nice meditation session to start the day, a quiet breakfast, then watching LIVE TRADING on YouTube. I didn't get to any of those. That's because I chose to pay attention to the work distraction instead. I got an email first thing about some documentation required for the FCC Telehealth grant and I got to that first thing this morning. As in before 8 AM this morning. I know where my attention was going I guess. By the time I had had breakfast, taken a shower and cleaned up it was already almost 10 AM. For some reason I had the urge to do grocery shopping early today and so I made a trek to Trader Joe's in the morning too and while I was at it, I ended up having one of those chicken scallopini microwaveable dinners for lunch. Pretty good too. I tried to take a nap but couldn't and that being the case I just waited until I got done with my 2 PM meeting with the EHR team. After THAT I considered my day all done.

My work day anyway concluded I spent the rest of Friday chillin' basically.  It had been a bit of an odd week. Even the weather was a bit strange with some drizzle during the middle of the week and it wasn't as warm as it usually such as it were in the middle of August. I remind myself that if I were still working at USC, students would have been moving in right about now, signifying the end of summer break. Hey, I've a couple of weeks left as it has started to get darker later in the morning, and darker earlier in the evening. Still I managed to take a nice walk around my neighborhood for a Friday evening. I mentally put myself in ready mode just in case Lisa needed help picking up Johnnie again, considering she IS working today as well. She must be trying to get some money in, what with purchases of a fridge and stove and all. I get it though. I'm trying to be as frugal as possible myself. Although I still need to learn the mechanics of generating a lot of money in a very short period of time. That is what I have to prove to myself don't I? I think what i have to work on is actually doing it, instead of reading about it. That's a program I need to clean up. Just one more block, one more obstacle I have to clear. I need to install the program: I AM A DOER, A CLOSER, A FINISHER. And I have no less of an example as my Cal Poly Pomona tenure to undo in my memory. hey at least I finished right? If only it took a lot longer than it should have. THAT is the pattern I must fix. Anyway tonight I had a hankering for pizza, though not necessarily from Domino's or Papa John's or Pizza Hut. I remembered Lisa's Boboli pizza from Monday and I remember thinking it was just as good as Pizza Hut. And so I bought some boboli for tonight, some pineapple chunks, mozarella cheese and pepperoni. See me yukking it up over the unfinished dough. And damn if it wasn't as good as the Pizza Hut version I usually pay $13 for?!! And so tonight I had my homemade pizza, Baked Lay's potato chips and I ended up watching not one but TWO movies: CODA (stands for Children of Deaf Adults) which won the Grand Prize at Sundance this year. I really liked the movie, and I think it's the best movie I've seen this year so far. It was about a young girl who is the only one who can hear in her family and we discover she has a talent for singing. How does one cultivate a talent no one in her family would ever know exists?! It was very well done and tugged at the heartstrings to be sure. The second was REMINISCENCE with Hugh Jackman about a machine that could go back and have someone experience any past memory. Of course it would turn into a search for memories about a love that was lost or more specifically a love that ended up being a con, but also ended up being true love after all. What we won't do for love... anyway it was a pretty good movie too and I'm sure it would do well at the box office. As far as I was concerned, this probably would have been just another night out at the movies as it used to be pre-pandemic. Just as much value watching at home, AND I got to watch 2 of them. Friday anxieties, all done and done.