Wha' Appen?

What the hell just happened??? I was cruising along playing a pretty good golf game. I was making putts, My tee shots were decent and even when they weren't my second shots would bail me out, I felt really really good. I was at 27 after 6 holes, which was a shot under bogey golf! And I swatted my tee shot on 7 pretty good too. Until it hit a tree branch and bounced straight down. Hey I was still in not bad a shape. All I had to do was hit the next shot down the fairway and give myself a shot. I hadn't whiffed all day long. Until that shot. And the one after. And the one after that. I hadn't had a blowup hole. Until Hole 7. I don't know what happened really except that I felt a tweak in my back after the 2nd whiff. But c'mon... it wasn't like I was in pain or anything like that. Not even close! And so I followed that up with a rickety tee shot on 8 and another whiff. For a 5. By Hole 9, I felt my back and neck and shoulders had tired out. And once again I blasted my tee shot right off a tree. On the fairway but again I did my whiff routine. Sigh. I think I simply lost focus on Hole 7. And I allowed myself to get rushed once again. And what followed was I undid my good golf game to that point.  Hey at least I started well and boy those first 6 holes sure were pretty good. But now I need to focus on the later holes when I start to get tired and start to rush and start to play tired. How can I be tired? AM I not in pretty good shape? It's all mental I tell you. And I need to work on that. Still. And it's not even the conscious stuff. I KNOW it's the subconscious stuff.  When I hit a branch or a tree I shift into something and malware program gets activated. Hence I become a whiff machine. And why did I even hit the branch in the first place? I wsn't focusing on it was I?  One hole earlier I hit the ball hard and straight. All I had to do was focus on THAT shot. And do it again. And I think I would have been ok. Same on Hole 8. I should have focused on my shot on Hole 3, where I dribble it all the way down pin level 135 yards away. I should have focused on my PHYSIOLOGY.  That and I remembered last weekk on Hole 8.  I was starting to get tired too. But I bore down and re-focused. It wasn't me hitting the ball. I asked for a good shot down the middle. Imagined how I felt after hitting it. Watched it sail straight down the fairway. And I did just that. Whacked it right down the middle. I should be doing that on every shot. I was doing it earlier in the game. The focus is to keep it up ALL GAME. What it is I think is that I get satisfied with a little bit of success and I let myself revert back to the level of that inconsistent golfer. Gotta re-write that program too. All game. I got into my own head on Hole 7. Gotta learn to get myself out of it. Ok. At least now I'm getting somewhere...

After the game I went to Crimson for lunch. Bought my usual. The place was full again which was nice to see. So full there was no parking on the street. Of course I was also a little later than usual. I parked in the downstairs lot like I used to. And when I got my food, I ate it right there. Not at Crimson, they were too full outside. I went to the yogurt place across the strip which hadn't opened yet. And had myself a nice lunch. After that I already had a day. And I even let myself nap for about 20 minutes. Before I realized I hadn't finished doing grocery shopping yet. Off I went to Trader Joe's and then to Ralphs to replenish for the week. NOW I could call my day all done. I found it interesting that I felt tightness in my upper back and shoulders. Couldn't be the golf right? Anyway I did manage to not be 100% in lazy mode. I re-viewed the David Snyder video on what the Law of Attraction gurus don't teach you. Or at least don't focus on. Yes it's about feelings not thoughts. Yes it IS about managing your state. Yes it IS about focusing on positive states and being able to manage that easiest with your physiology. Just like at golf this morning. [If I were coaching me I would tell me before each shot on the fairway to assume the physiology of a confident golfer. And then swing away] So I got some LEARNING in today after all. And so when I started getting into lazy mode, watching FEAR THE WALKING DEAD, and then PERSON OF INTEREST, eating Thai food leftovers from last night I didn't feel so bad. In fact, although the weekend was pretty quiet, I got done what I wanted to do. I can focus on next week now...