Back To Work

Ahh you'd think I'd be happy that this week is a short week or maybe that is't summer already this being the first day of June and all. But actually, since it is a compressed week, what I would be doing on a busy Monday I am now doing on Tuesday, and on top of that I'm supposed to be hosting the monthly TownHall tomorrow first thing. How I became a regular at doing that is really strange. Kind of like now I am the mainstay  HIT Chair for CCALAC and I've been doing that for at least 6 years now. But of course first things first and nothing happens before I drop Johnnie off at school. The visual I posted represented the morning: Johnnie having his usual breakfast and watching Number Blocks and Claire the dog just chilling right around the both of us. And then it was off to drop-off noting that Johnnie is down to his last 2 weeks of school! And then after that? TBD STILL! I came home and started working on everything. Covid vaccination reports, all needing to be redesigned because now we're using Pfizer for kids 12 and above. We're also counting down to the announcement that the State is finally going to lift its mask mandate in a couple of weeks, pushing us closer to normal at least here in California. So Johnnie was busy at play at school and I was busy doing my thing at home. Really I only took a break for lunch (beef stew leftovers from the weekend) and walking Claire and by mid-afternoon I actually got all my reports done and I was rolling right along with the work for the TownHall. It wasn't like I had to do much really. I just had to stitch together everyone's recorded messages and pick the song for the waiting room. REALLY important stuff here. And then of course the break in the afternoon to pick up Johnnie. He was all covered in colored chalk and he was sweaty as always. A CLEAR indication that he had fun for the day though and that is always good. He, however, did NOT take to the Trader Joe's macaroni and cheese that i had made him for "lunch" when he got back home. And I could sense my own frustration though giving something new for Johnnie to eat is ALWAYS a 50-50 proposition at best whether he's actually going to like it or not.

Looking back on today, what started there with Johnnie's food must have kept me at a negative state for a while. Because I ended up irritable for the bulk of the evening. And somehow, I must pushed a negative trigger with Johnnie too. Whether it was doing his SeeSaw homework or watching whatever video he was in the mood to watch, or simply playing with Claire (where of course Claire would end up barking), I saw myself getting irritated and nagging Johnnie about something. "I told you I don't want to hear the dog bark". "What do you feel like watching NOW?!" Really Johnnie was just being his playful self and here I am being a grouchy old dude. Of COurSe that would trigger something negative. Next thing I knew he didn't feel like watching the Magic School Bus anymore. And when I turned it off to supposedly punish him for what I don't even know, he just went "inside" and got into a crappy mood of his own. Of course I would notice that and then I snapped back into being the concerned dad. I asked him what he was feeling and if he was feeling angry, sad, or whatever. "I don't feel like talking about it right now" was all I got. And so I just brushed his teeth and put him to bed and for myself, I silently did my Hooono'ponopono thing to help clear my own negative energy. So on top of all the work I had to do today, I still had to work on myself too. Lots of work all around eh? Fortunately, I did get to bed by 11 PM. We will do a reset tomorrow.