Re-set

I would like to believe that at some point in time I'm going to "get it". To give that statement context I'm thinking about my golf game. But it wouldn't be such a reach to talk about my journey to "self-mastery" either in the bigger scheme of things. After all, have I not been practicing manifesting skills while playing golf? Sometimes it comes together but I'd like to be a heck of a lot more consistent at it. Which means I have to practice more. Otherwise it's like the pic I posted. The successes and breakthroughs will look like a tiny spec in the horizon compared to the clouds blocking it. BTW, that is really what it was like all day today. Like the sun took a day off or something. It started cloudy and stayed that way all day long. In the meantime, I pretty much stuck to the work routine of the day-to-day acknowledging that it is that hamster wheel activity I need to break through eventually as well if I wish to do something extraordinary. Do I wish to do something extraordinary? The things that I want to accomplish might present a case for me wanting that. Or is it simply my Higher Self reminding me of what I am truly capable of? Last night I put on my affirmation video on Youtube and played it over and over while I was asleep. To the background of theta waves. It is clear that I am trying to rewrite subconscious programming. And it is also clear that I have stuff to clean out because there was some yuck feelings that came up as well when I woke up that I couldn't quite identify. Clearly there is work to do here and I NEED TO BE MORE CONSISTENT AT DOING THAT VERY WORK. And yes at the same time I also have work obligations too. A meeting at 9:30 to hash out the last TownHall meeting. I was anxious about this meeting at first. I knew all our tech difficulties from the last meeting would come up. I felt responsible. But really I just need to do my job don't I. And I need to tell my team what to do. And then right after this meeting was the usual Monday Business Continuity Meeting. More than an hour of managers updating each other. I told everyone how encouraged I was that our phishing score was very good this month. Best in almost a year. I told myself that I am STILL creating massive value at work but I also need to put in effort with transitioning out by replacing my current salary with an income stream outside of work. THAT I need to work on NOW. Oh and speaking of routines, Monday means heavy steps day <which I took care of with a long aerobics routine first thing> AND vaccination reports day <which I took care of right after lunch>. 

It was already mid-afternoon by the time I looked up from all these things that I did already. I had been pretty damn productive. But I also knew I still had a lot to do. AND for some reason my stomach sort of revolted after I shoved some corn chips down for a snack. What happened? All of a sudden I had to go to the bathroom 3 times. And had diarrhea by the 2nd trip.  OK so I didn't exactly have a nice healthy lunch. Frozen carne asada burrito from Trader Joe's that was cold. Frozed Swanson's turkey breast dinner. Do i wonder why my stomach revolted? Oh well, I guess I have to stick with a tried and true pizza tonight don't I? I waited until later than usual to pick Johnnie up. I figured since i hadn't heard from Lisa all day that she was good spending her time with him today. And so I waited until almost 5 PM to pick Johnnie up. After all, when I do pick him up and with Claire too of course, the ME TIME is over for today as well. When I got to Lisa's house there was Johnnie in the patio looking for leaves. Apparently he had gotten a hold of a silkworm that he had talked about last week from school. And now they need to get mulberry leaves as silkworms ONLY eat these kinds of leaves. You gotta give it to my son. When he has it in his mind he'll do something... And so of course Lisa and Johnnie are off to get mulberry leaves from some tree down the street. Thank God we even have it in her neighborhood! No comments this time about Lisa indulging Johnnie too much. This was all him. And I did want to have mom and son enjoy today together. So guess what new pet comes with me today?!! And so it was that the passenger side of the car was full of stuff that is supposed to come with Johnnie, including his Western clothes for tomorrow's dress-up day. And of course the large pizza from Pizza Hut for my dinner. At the end of the day though, nothing beats Johnnie curling up with me on the couch while watching the Wild Kratts enjoying some Chee-tohs. By then my stomach had finally settled some, I had gotten well past 15000 steps, closer to 16,000 in fact. And I had taken the dog out for a walk outside even. I ask you, does anything else in the world matter?  Well.. one thing. Johnnie reminded me we usually make cookies and I hadn't done so in the last couple of weeks. When the kid is right he's right. And so I did make cookies. And Johnnie had some for dessert as well. Along with his milk. NOW everything is right in the world. NOW everything is all good.