An Eezy Peezy Tuesday

I felt good about getting back to some kind of baseline yesterday. And I, of all people, will note that there has to be consistent action over time. THAT is the reason I haven't gotten the results that I wanted. I mean I look back at last year's entries and I had been trying to create the same outcomes for a couple of years now it seems like. I get some success but maybe it's me thinking it's slow going or that I am mistakenly looking for something much more dramatic. Anyway, it's like practicing a few times at golf and then having a pretty good game but then not continuing the practice routine. OF COURSE you're going to slip back  to the mediocre norm. The key I think is to do whatever I can during short periods of downtime, as the routine when I have Johnnie is pretty much set. Wake up early, take the dog out to poop and pee, then one of those short periods of downtime before I give Johnnie a shower and get breakfast and then the school drop-off. It IS the last week of school and there are signs all over the school about the 5th grade graduation. I forget that Johnnie has never experienced the last day of school at Mar Vista because he was already in the middle of online-and-stay-at-home at this time last year. In fact I looked at what was going on last year and yes we were all neck-deep in staying home and social distancing. AND last year at this time I got an episode of Bell's palsy too. I still think I was dealing with some infection of sorts. That it went away fairly quickly sort of supports that. And maybe it was just one more distraction that was thrown at me. After all, the Universe will test you. I thought I was in the middle of breakthroughs for the year. And then that distraction. If I looked at every single non-positive event as a distraction that I somehow brought on to myself, would that change anything? You bET! But for today, just for today, the routine meant dressing up Johnnie in his Western gear for school to celebrate the last week of school. And then I went home and tacked on some steps first thing simply to get to 60 active minutes or more today. That meant foregoing a shower... and that's ok! I did my IS Team Meeting, gave my team the same lecture on learning Edge networking. And then afterwards, I had it in my mind to drive down to Westlake North and drop off the new Ubuntu server I just build, and the new iPhone that I wasn't even using. I left around 10:30 and got back just about an hour later, and before lunch even. And I felt like I got work done at that... 

I did the Italian sausage barbecue for lunch. Used to be I would do this at night last year and have Johnnie kick around a soccer ball while I did it. This year I have evolved to getting him as much Panda Express as he can stand LOL. I have to admit, it was much more relaxing doing it without him around in the middle of the day. And a beautiful day it was at that. As for the afternoon, I worked on the couch was what I did. I used the old DELL, kept returning emails, kept busy doing my thing AND did that while I did affirmations on YouTube. THIS is what I meant about getting internal work done during short bursts of downtime. Before I knew it, it was near 3 PM and time to pick up Johnnie. He still had his cowboy hat on but he was having fun and he was excitedly telling me how he had alot of stuff in his bag... including his new Tshirt to wear for the last day of school on Friday. They're starting to send home school materials they had been working on even for just the short time the kids had returned to school. Stuff that would have usually been in the yellow bag at the beginning of the year.  Anyway I also got ahead of Johnnie's eating patterns by having a Trader Joe's pizza ready for him when he got home. And so we were still able to go out and get some Panda Express before 6 PM. In the meantime, Eloisa emailed me making it almost official that I'm taking over the EHR team on July 1. I had all these things flitting around my thoughts from the weekend. Things I needed to take care of. Gotta lock in my lease for the apartment since I'm no longer moving to a bigger place. Gotta get Johnnie registered for summer camp at Penmar next week. School is done this week after all. And then there's the whole Jury Duty thing going on next week. But you know I wasn't nearly as bothered by any of these things as I was this past weekend. Because I just reminded myself that no matter what decision i choose, everything works out in my FAVOR. How exactly isn't obvious yet, but I'm willing to let things turn out. I made peace with that.  And that is all the Universe requires.