So This Happened...

You know how I keep saying there aren't really any accidents. Just things that happen that you aren't aware you attracted. I'm not at all saying you attract every negative thing that happens to you. But then again, negative things are only negative because of your perception (#1), also they are more likely to happen if you are in a negative state. You get what you focus on right? In any other time before these past couple of years, I might have thought a simple slip in the shower, producing a painful bruise in my back, behind my ear, and my hand would just be an accident. I was just trying to get soap on my feet and I slipped.  That is a very plausible explanation obviously. But then again if I unpack my mental state this morning, I remember thinking about Lisa and HER accident on Sunday night. That I kept asking if she was ok with her neck and back. I think maybe it was still on my mind this morning. That and possibly other negative things going on in my mind. At least nothing was broken. Although if it is this painful right after it happened, it is sure to get even  more painful later. Maybe I'm just supposed to take it real light and easy the rest of the day. After all, I was already at 33 active minutes and almost 4000 steps even before breakfast, courtesy of a walk around Penmar Park right after I dropped Johnnie off. I'm liking doing that. And really all I had to do today as to get my personal goals and self-assessment done and entered in the system. Yep, it's performance evaluation time. I don't particularly like this time because I have to focus on my team and I do not look forward to reviewing James. It ain't going to be a good one. But then again I had reviewed him before so he should know me by now. Funny thing about Tuesdays though is that I don't really plan anything but then the time gets filled up by work somehow. This morning I ended up doing the HCCN report and then we got the 3rd party pen test results too. So all of a sudden I had to debrief on both. No red flags, it's all good. We're solid on the infrastructure still. And after having read both reports by mid-day I pronounced myself done with work. Yep, I figured the performance stuff was not due until tomorrow and I will not get it done until then. 

In the meantime I had other stuff to do. My Pixel needs to be replaced now. Actually so does my Fitbit. Is it the Universe testing me on these smallish expenses that add up if one isn't careful? As in if I really felt abundant, these expenses would be nothing. It IS a fine balance between being cheap and being miserly and not really caring much about what you spend on stuff. I mean I have over $60K in liquid cash lying around after all. What I do have to watch is not-enoughness thinking and my ego yet again trying to exert control. In the meantime, it is the last Tuesday in June. I was watching the EuroCup soccer championships and remembered when it was in France and we were actually there. One of my most memorable things of summer. Of late June. Even if it came with all the emotional crap that Lisa brought to bear. This year June was relatively quiet. Filled with days of Johnnie at Penmar summer camp. And still it was already far more eventful than last summer when we were all waiting out the pandemic. Of course that doesn't count the civil unrest of the George Floyd killing that found its way here to SoCal and brought on a curfew on top of the lockdown. And so you will excuse me if I am ok with the boring. Picking up Johnnie at 3 PM. Making him lunch. Sharing an ice cream sandwich. Walking the dog. Going to Panda Express to pick up dinner. Still wearing masks though we no longer have to. Still bringing the food back to the house even though we don't have to. Very mundane to be sure. Tuesday used to be Italian sausage night. I don't know why I gave up feeding that to Johnnie. Maybe I was making sure he ate well. Today I did have Italian sausage. But I cooked it at lunchtime. Used that time to pad up my steps. Got to 6000 before mid-afternoon even. And tonight for dinner, I just stuck said Italian sausage over fried rice from Panda Express. A quick dinner! At least I had a look at the goals from the past year for both I.S. and Data Analytics. Funny how I didn't feel like I did well in a couple of them, yet because I stepped up with Covid vaccine stuff, I'm sure I'm going to get a fairly good review. Anyway what would it matter if I am working for myself with plenty of money at this time next year? By bedtime, I am much more sore than this morning. My ribs were bruised and the left side of my head was sore too. Maybe I should be glad it wasn't worse. Much worse. And I'm pretty sure I'll be over it by tomorrow. Just a nudge from the Universe is all. Should be thinking about other stuff. I got the message. I got it just fine.