Not So Calm This Monday

I woke up with a bit of a sense of dread this morning.  Kennedy had sent a message late last night that he wasn't coming in today. And so I thought that with Noriel and Nelson already out today, that leaves Larry all by himself to hold the fort. Not good. And so I spent the morning prepping myself to be unbelievably busy today.  Ahh there was the Universe testing me again. Instead of just going back within and making sure everything was calm from an energy standpoint, I gave in to anxiety and panic. Sigh. Still work to do. As it turned out I would find out much later on... as in closer to lunch that in fact, Nelson and Noriel were scheduled to be out NEXT WEEK. Not today. I panicked for NOTHING. And something tells me that even if they had both taken the day off, I would have panicked for nothing anyways. Therein lies the lesson isn't it? Oh well, at least I got a chance to walk to the bank like I did last week, but brought my Fitbit this time. And so by mid-morning I was still right on track to the 15,000 steps Monday this day had evolved into. And at mid-day during lunch I walked some more and got myself French Dip sandwich and onion rings from Marie Callenders. And had my lunch right there at the fountain in my backyard. This would turn out to be the theme for today. Eating out there as I would find out later. Today I actually had a couple of things due: deadline for getting officially signed up and uploading our speaking material for the NACHC FOM/IT meeting next month. AND it's HRSA survey report week. Although that isn't officially due until tomorrow. I wanted it done today. So right off the bat those were 2 fairly huge outcomes I wanted to get done today. And then of course there's the Johnnie pick-up later on. I reminded myself to simply focus on piling up wins. Little wins, big wins. Hey I was at 8000 steps before it was even 2 PM. That's a win. Actually I got all my speaker stuff done by lunchtime. AND I had already downloaded all the data I needed for the HRSA survey report. It would have been great to get a nap in too, considering I didn't exactly get good sleep last night. But the best I could do was a meditative semi-alpha state. At least I got to focus on gratitude while in that state for a half hour, even if I didn't get my nap. 

I guess it was too much to ask for a quiet Monday evening and a quick pick-up at Lisa's couldn't it? Yeah yeah I know everything is me pushed out.  Still, at least Lisa had the foresight to realize she wasn't going to make it to STAR by 5:30 to pick up Johnnie. So she called me and I was happy to do so. Except of course it never stops there. She asked if we could all have dinner together. She was at her office overseeing the installation of her compressor. I guess it would be ok... after all I was going to El Pollo Loco to pick up my dinner. Wouldn't be too much out of my way to pick up food for Lisa as well. Except that she suggested we eat at my apartment. Not IN my apartment obviously, she is never going to see the inside of it. But she suggested eating outdoors by the barbecue. That we've done many times actually. We did have to stop at Lisa's house anyway because tomorrow is picture day for Johnnie's school and I needed to get his nice clothes for him to wear. And while there I picked up some soup brotht o go with the penne pasta I had already prepped for Johnnie. It was 5:45 when Lisa and I spoke about meeting up. Johnnie was so hungry I got him to eat HIS dinner.  Which was a good thing because Lisa didn't come until it was almost 7:30. Just Lisa once again being Lisa. She simply hijacks your time and energy. But I made up my mind I wasn't going to let her put me in any kind of funky negative vibe. Even though we were going to discuss stuff to buy for Johnnie and when we do that somehow we end up arguing. It's a control thing I know that now. I allow myself into the argument anyway. Fortunately, we didn't really have any kind of tension this evening. We ate dinner out there and then we talked about reading books Johnnie was supposed to buy this semester.  Not quite sure how I ended up footing all of the $65 it cost but that's ok. I'm not going to cheap out about it. Anyway Johnnie chose his books and after I purchased them online with Lisa, off she went home and off we went to my apartment. And concluded our Monday night. I actually did some work this evening. I still had to do the HRSA survey report. And though it is always a pain in the ass to do the thing, finish it I did.  It was midnight by the time I went to bed. Johnnie had already long been asleep. Wasn't exactly a calm Monday this day. But I really can't complain either. It's all good.