Why do I stay up and binge watch stuff I have already watched before? And until almost 3 AM in the morning yet? Why do I do that? Don't I realize it is one of those behaviors I can classify as self-destructive? I mean I literally got barely 4 hours of sleep last night. For what? And that guarantees I'm going to be tired playing golf today. Sigh. And it was such a beautiful day too. Look at the video I posted from Hole 3 at Harbor Golf Course. Even though our tee time was not until 10:10 AM, I was still tired and sleep-deprived. And not only did I feel tired, I felt irritable. I felt off. Great. And when I got to the golf course, there was no parking! That's because a major sign that LA is returning to normal, is that the Sunday soccer league in the field adjacent to the golf course has started up again and is teeming with players and the familiar sounds of many soccer games going on at the same time. So back to that video on Hole 3. That followed a horrendous Hole 2 for me that basically I just gave up on because I kept hitting the ball to the other fairway! W-ha-t the FUCK?! And to be fair, it didn't start off that way for me. On the very first hole, I hit a great tee shot to the middle of the fairway, then hit my 2nd shot right on the green! I SHOULD HAVE had a par. But I missed my putt and that was that. I hit under my ball on the 2nd tee and then launched a rocket for my 2nd shot. That hit a tree branch. And what followed was a succession of terrible shots that should have let me know I was already thrown off my game. I remember the last time I played this hole. I almost had a par then. Not today. Not on Hole 3 either, which led me to just trying to enjoy the view. Because it was clear that my focus was off. And that's because I was tired and sleep deprived. I tried to fight through it. But nothing doing. I tied for the win on that first hole. Never won a hole after that. I was short arming everything which told me I WAS playing tired. And my rhythm was way off. I did sink a couple of putts but nothing about today's game felt good after the first hole. Oh well. Easy lesson today huh? And the negative feelings lingered far longer after that. With the return to some semblance of normalcy in LA also marked the return of really bad traffic. Up until today playing at Harbor was ok since the traffic on the drive home wasn't all that bad. Well that ended today. It took almost 40 minutes to make it back to the westside. So bad was it that I didn't stop for food until I was already near home. And I decided to get an Impossible whopper and chicken fries from the BK lounge. oh well, at least yesterday's food experience was really really good. Today I just wanted to eat, crash on the couch and catch up on the sleep I didn't get last night. I closed my eyes but couldn't actually knock off not even with some binaural beats on Youtube going on. All I did was just to chill... after all my foot was sore too from all that walking I think. Or maybe from all that walking from the previous 6 days. Anyway I did manage to get a decent dinner in. I didn't cook this time. I didn't want to. I got the usual salmon kabob lunch from Crimson but had it for dinner tonight. And made me feel instantly better. Lucky for me, I got all my laundry done yesterday so no need to do that. And finally by 9 PM the lack of sleep caught up with me. I don't know when I knocked off actually. Must have been sometime around 10 PM. It was shortly after watching FEAR THE WALKING DEAD. Weekend over. Brand new week all teed up.
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