Friday At Last 3 Day Weekend is Here

How do I know it is FRIDAY and I'm ready for the long weekend? Well I know it's Friday when I have to wake up by 6 AM to lock in a tee time for the following Sunday for us. Not lost on me was that we're losing Greg at the end of July and even though that's a whole 2 months away, I'm starting to get a little nostalgic about all that. And so I got us our tee time and tried to go back to sleep. After all, I have NOTHING on my schedule for work today. In my mind, half the office has already taken off for the long weekend and all I have to do is to hang on for the day. It started off nice and quiet actually. I did  some meditation first thing and actually got into a nice, peaceful space for the morning. It would be unfortunate that I would not be able to hold that space. See what I do know is that I get tested quite often. You think you have peace and harmony huh? Then what about some traffic in your face. Let's see about that patience then.  How about Lisa bugging you about what she usually bugs you about (that you don't have absolutely one iota of care about). Still patient? What energy is dominant today? Compassion or impatience? I did manage to remind myself of my own superpowers this morning. That would be the superpower of intentional creation instead of the habitual reacting to the tugs of the outside world. As of mid-morning I thought I was doing ok. Technically I was still "on the clock" and if I were at the office, I'd have been counting down the end of the day just as soon as I got back from lunch. Today I went and grabbed some Subway sandwiches, my usual meatball marinara and tuna with cheese on spinach and tomato, like I occasionally did when I did work at the office. Either I'd walk to the old AT&T Building or walk across the street for that one. Today, it was merely a quick drive to the next block. It was odd that I chose not to walk really, and I can't really say why other than my calves were unusually sore this morning and I didn't really know why. Couldn't have been from all the walking, I've been doing that every week for more than a year. And then I remembered it was almost exactly a year ago that my legs got sore too. Maybe it's just a late spring thing. Gotta rest something sometime. 

And so it was that I made it to mid-afternoon before I got one last ping from work. A call from Marina. This was not at all unusual, not for her. She would call me often actually. Except that today I guess I didn't have as much patience as I would have liked to think. She needed some help from the IS Team connecting a refridgerator that just came in. She was EXPECTING immediate service and told me she had called me earlier in the week. I don't know what about that made me snap. Other than it WAS a Friday before the 3-day weekend and I really did felt inconvenienced. And I felt like she was getting in my face. In retrospect what she did was no different than what she would normally do. But this time I snapped back. It was like people forget all these rules we set up and feel like they can do whatever they get away with. Yesterday it was Barbara emailing a 50 MB attachment. I mean What-the-FUck??! Today it's Marina. And I didn't feel like being nice. And so I told her we'll see what we can do but not before I laid into her about being a good teammate and making sure we are all on the same page. Because right then and there I did NOT feel like we were on the same page. And I did NOT feel like cleaning up after someone's shit. Of course even writing about it now makes me certain I was over-reacting and that I really did need to chill. Maybe I hadn't recovered from being tired from yesterday. By mid-afternoon, I decided that was it. I was shutting down. No more work. I went to the store, picked up some ingredients and made myself a nice homemade beef stew. Usually I'd do this on a Monday. Tonight, I wanted to stay in and eat comfort food. My OWN comfort food. I apologize to the world for losing my patience. That was on me. And now the weekend is here and I can just breathe. Just breathe. Breathe...