Talk About A Lazy Sunday

So i woke up this morning, which is the real Mother's Day and right off the bat I did not feel like getting up early.  Maybe I'm still decompressing from yesterday. That drive back to deliver Johnnie to Lisa for a play date by 1 PM turned into 2 PM and it was STRESSFUL. I hadn't dealt with traffic in that way in quite a while. So you will forgive me if I am still getting back to balance today. Fortunately I didn't schedule a golf tee time until 10:10 AM. I figured it was Penmar anyway and I'm sure even with the late start we'd get done by 12:30. And so I can at least have a leisurely breakfast at home. Then again, with a lazy mood overcoming me, I didn't get to lollygag as much as I'd like. In fact, one minute I was enjoying my bacon, tomato and cream cheese  bagel and then I'm already rushing to get out the door. It wasn't the warm days that it had been all week this morning. Not cold, but not warm either. Sort of June gloom-y. As far as the golf, I had already done some meditation on having a good game today. And on the first hole I offset a wild left tee shot with a fairway pitch to the front of the green but from not even 30 yards out, I had no touch on the next pitch and on the putt either. And I finished with a 6 on what should have been an easy par. That's how out of focus I started. And that's how I would end up playing today. As if I was tired and I didn't really care. No reminder not to rush myself, instead it was the total opposite. I was just swinging away with no intention. Once in a while I would hit a good drive (hole 2 was just about perfect off the tee). Or a nice fairway lob, but never on the same hole. And my putting was non-existent. I think I also let the group in front of us get in my head. They were very annoying. Younger players who were not very self-aware. They would leave their bags in the fairway where we had to wait for them to walk off before we could shoot. And they were slow. I could not focus. Not enough to have a good game anyway. And so I just sort of gave up on today's game, taking enough satisfaction in that I got to play even if I didn't play all that well. Another lesson in being more intentional in what I wish to experience. I allowed myself to be ok with not having a good game. And so that is what I got. Not a good game. Not a good game at all. 

At least I got to go back to enjoying a nice salmon kabob lunch from Crimson after the game. And some lentil soup. Hadn't had this meal in a few weeks. Might as well take advantage that I'm playing right down the street. I toyed with the idea of stopping at Lisa's to wish her a Happy Mother's Day. But that thought lasted all of a couple of seconds. I was tired and I am tanking today after golf. I remember last year this time, businesses were still closed, no one played golf because it was Mother's Day, and I spent my Sunday walking around the neighborhood and then washing Lisa's car for her Mother's Day present. No need to do anything this year, I'm sure she's having a good Mother's Day. And so I tanked the rest of the day. I did so much nothing that it was almost 10 PM when I realized I still had to clean up the kitchen. And put away the laundry - the towels mostly. And throw out the trash. And finish my journal entries. Yikes! What did I do? Not a damn thing. Watched some of the episodes of Outlander then the Last Kingdom. Why am I attracted to a series about time travel in Scotland. Because it's time travel. Then I caught a little bit of Fear the Walking Dead. And then I did all those things I didn't do all afternoon. I fully realize that Mondays are really busy for me these days. But that's still tomorrow. Tonight I was content just to be tired and just to do nothing. Lucky I got Mother's Day celebrating out of the way yesterday huh? And that would be the highlight of the weekend. It is all good.