Golf Then Date #2

I woke up this morning thinking, it's May already! Which means we're already halfway through Spring and almost into summer. Heck if I was still working at USC, we'd be talking about the USC Commencement in a couple of weeks already. Still this being a Sunday of course, I'm thinking about golf and since the tee time today isn't until 9:30, I'm taking my time this morning. I'm actually taking a shower first thing since I do have a date after the golf game for the 2nd week in a row. I reminded myself that back in the day, 9:30 was the usual tee time, but teeing off at that time meant we wouldn't be done until it was almost 12:30. These days it isn't so bad since there are no more fivesomes AND they stagger the tee times by 10 minutes not 6 minutes like they used to. So there isn't as much waiting around. We're at Harbor too, which means Chris is definitely coming to play. It's the longest course on our circuit and the last time we played here 2 weeks ago, I didn't do so well. And so once again I focused on relaxing and letting my body just find try to find balance to make the best ball contact possible. Sounds easy? It is, especially since I realize now I mess up when I let myself get speeded up somehow, either because I hit a bad shot previously and did not take the time to re-focus. OR because I simply let myself get speeded up. It's a mental thing and it's another opportunity to remind myself and parallel all that to my conscious creating efforts. This morning though, it was different coming out of the gate. As in I hit 2 bogeys in a row, winning the first 2 holes. Me. Yes me. I won the first 2 holes. I hit the ball solidly from the tee and on Hole 2, the 2nd shot went further than the tee shot. I was almost to the green in just 2 shots. When has THAT ever happened? It wasn't until Hole 3 that I unraveled from the fairway and I was already 40 yards from the green after 3 shots. I could have easily bogeyed this hole too. But I muffed for the first time on that fairway shot and I simply did not re-focus. Resulting in a bad Hole 4. I got my tee shot back on Hole 5 but again let myself get speeded up. Finally on Hole 6 I shot a par! And I won that hole 2. In the end I actually made it a game, 1 hole behind Chris the entire time all the way to the last hole. And so it's probably the best I played this course in some time. And I'll take that any day.

Unlike last week, we finished by 11:45! Yes it only took a little over 2 hours to play. Wonder what happened last week at Roosevelt?? Today Sil was heading us to the LBC. Long Beach. At Belmont Brewing Company right by the ocean. Sounds cool huh? Even then there wasn't as much traffic as I thought and I actually got there in less than a half hour. I took my time parking and got us a spot for a table since I beat Sil there. I took pics of all the beach goings-on this nice beautiful Sunday. It was like everyone was out. I fully appreciated that I was at the beach and all in all it was a nice time. We had a nice lunch, talked for a couple of hours just like last week. Sil is a nice person but I admit there isn't really any sparks for me, not just yet. But then again were there sparks with Lisa for a while? The answer was an unequivocal NO. We had lunch, walked around the beach, stopped at Jack-in-the-Box for churros (dessert). yep, Jack-in-the-box. Big spender I am huh?! And then I went on home by 3:30. I was home before 4:30 PM today and I had the rest of Sunday to chill. I thought about next week and all the stuff I needed to do. Mainly the FCC Telehealth grant writeup I'm responsible for. Sigh. I should have been finished last Friday. But I wasn't. I emailed our grants person that I will be done by tomorrow. I sure hope I am. It isn't due until Thursday but I'm sure she doesn't want to wait until the last minute. Then of course there's the Strategy Meeting on Wednesday that pushed me to apply for the Beyond the Bell Program for Johnnie starting next week. I think it's a good thing for him. It's like the old STAR program. I hope Lisa remembers the paperwork tomorrow. I already reminded myself I'm thinking about all this the entirely wrong way. Why not think about how smoothly the FCC grant, and the meeting on Wednesday, AND Johnnie's Beyond the Bell experience is going to turn out this week? yeah. That's it. It will all be just fine.

**** Post-script: I am writing this on June 11. Only because it wasn't until then that I remembered that May 2... this day... was my wedding anniversary. Not that it mattered anymore to me obviously. I even had a date this day and it was the last thing on my mind clearly. Which means I'm well over it. That's a good thing at least for me emotionally. I'm writing about it simply to note that. I guess I[m proud of myself. I wish I really could have felt more of a connection on my date though...