Appreciating Tuesday

Quote of the day: We don't see things the way they are, we see things the way WE are. Another A-HA truth-ism. Even with the dog and Johnnie back in my bed as I woke up this morning, I still got in some pretty good meditation and in fact, remembered something from this weekend in one of the many YouTube videos that I watched that could help with my manifesting. I remember a Joe Dispenza video talking about FOCUS but if you can also add an element of URGENCY so that it has to happen right now, that is when the Universal tumblers click and make things happen FAST. And I found myself thinking that there is a certain comfort level that is making things "good enough" for me. I have no desire to go back to that point where I got let go at USC Dental School albeit not for a few months, or when I got laid off at USC Stevens, albeit I found another job almost immediately. I do remember trying to do online trading when I was let go at USC Dental School, but I was also more focused on the start of a budding relationship with Lisa than the online trading. After all, I was sitting on at least 2 months of income. And as it were, only when Lisa got a job did I kick start my own process of finding a regular source of income too. And so it would seem that FINANCIAL SECURITY is what I desired the most and I had it then. And so all I have to focus on is whatever I need to do to replace my QueensCare income and be financially secure.  OK maybe shoot for even more than that is ok right? And so I had a pretty good foundation for the day even though I knew that as soon as I took the dog out for her morning poop-and-pee session outside, I had already morphed into Tuesday routine. It was still a nice, though windy day out and I also knew rain was coming at some point this week, possibly by tomorrow.  I appreciated playing single dad throwing McDonald's breakfast on for Johnnie, logging him in to his morning school sessions. And because of the early morning meditation session I knew that despite the regular work stuff, the Johnnie school stuff, the dog stuff, I took comfort that I was still doing very ok. Look at the pic I posted of Johnnie reading "the Pigeon needs a Bath" on my computer. That look on his face? The hand on my shoulder? Priceless. 

I also realized that I benefitted today from sleeping more than 6 hours for the first time in a few days, which meant that I was far less likely to be irritated and affected by the day-to-day stuff that is really not as important as I make it out to be. That would be, after all, the key to maintaining a proper mental diet isn't it. If everything is ME pushed out, wouldn't it make sense that I could also push out as much positive stuff as I can? That just the pleasure of listening to Johnnie squeal with laughter as I tickle him is something I can focus on and push out as well? Or appreciating the sound of the dogs paws scurrying towards me from the living room trying to escape Johnnie's teasing attempts. <Note: He really IS picking up on the karate stuff... his kicks have started to feel far less harmless> I thought about driving us to Panda Express Marina del Rey tonight just like I used to a couple of years ago when Johnnie was still at Blue Oak. I looked back at last year's pictures from March and this was the week it was raining and Johnnie played in the Mar Vista playground with his rain boots and with puddles all around. Who KNEW that would be the last time he would be playing there in more than a year! Still it was encouraging to watch him interact with his classmates on Zoom albeit online. And I fully appreciate Lisa's efforts to further socialize him with a couple of kids from the neighborhood (Simon and Rose). Still, all the horseplay on my couch? All the goofy stuff Johnnie does with me? Priceless. And no matter what is going on at work, I know what matters most and I know I am competent and I provide massive value and that is what I hang my hat on every day. There is a lot of stuff I miss of course, hey I'm not perfect. But if there is something that comes to my attention that needs fixing, I usually do fix it. And fix it quickly. Now to translate all that energy into other stuff. I didn't really have time to do much today even though I knew full well there is a boatload of stuff I needed to get to, even the personal stuff. There's taxes that needs to get done. That's got to be high up on the list right? Anyway for some reason I felt ready to go to bed by 9 PM again tonight. I don't know what got me so tired all day. Maybe... oh, taking care of Johnnie and the dog? Getting to 11,000 steps by 8 PM AND doing some leg exercises along the way? Or maybe it's just the lack of sleep over the weekend still catching up with me. In any case, there wasn't a big urge to talk Johnnie into an early night. He was complaining of drinking his protein milk too fast and his stomach needed to "rest" he said. All good with me. We're all of us in bed by 9:15.