Irregular Monday

So Lisa alerted me last Saturday that she is going to the doctor's yet again today for the same condition she had complained about or been complaining about for a couple of weeks now. I have no comment as to the need for such a visit. All I cared about was that I have to watch Johnnie while he is in his last online class because her appointment is at 1 PM. And so dutifully I showed up at 12:30 and caught Johnnie interacting with his schoolmates. Apparently a return to in-person learning is imminent and I can't wait. It's only going to be for 3 hours a day in the mornings. But that's still a meaningful enough 3 hours. This morning for example, I got up and immediately started my Monday round of reports (for Covid vaccination) and started my round of stretches and exercises. Monday is heavy steps day and has been for a few months now after all. I looked and I averaged 100+ minutes of activity every single Monday since the new year. Pretty awesome I think. And a routine I am not going to stop today even if I have to play things differently in the middle of the day. I figured this would be a good practice for when Johnnie goes back to school. By lunchtime I had already done 8000 steps, but the problem was that when I got to Lisa's I hadn't had time to get lunch for myself. Still, Lisa headed off to her appointment, Courtney was on her way out and Johnnie let me know he still hadn't had lunch either. WEll then... off we went to Panda Express Marina del REy! Was it a few years now that we used to come to this Panda Express every Tuesday? Today, we just got our lunch and went back to Lisa's house to eat it. At least the boy will have had a decent meal. I also got him to clean up all the saved work he had out, including his "restaurant" for the weekend. This would make it easier for us to leave later on as Lisa tends to not do anything until late late afternoon. By 3 PM, Lisa still hadn't gotten back, which meant she was probably in the middle of a bunch of tests. That was my timemarker to head back one way or the other. And so I had Johnnie pack up and off we went to my apartment. I figured we could always come back if Lisa wanted to have dinner with Johnnie. But then again who knows what mood she would be in right?  

Almost 4 PM I had my answer. It turned out that her condition was not kidney stones after all and now she's back to square one as to having this "mystery pain" and "mystery ailment".  Great. I can only imagine what that does to her mentally <roll my eyes>. She was actually surprised that we had cleaned up and left although predictably, she felt like taking a nap. And so it was good that we left after all and Lisa just waved off the rest of the day. Heck, we were already at the apartment and into the Monday routine kind of early. I had spent enough time at Lisa's house even though I managed to get to 10,000 steps by the time we got back. Hey, it was a nice day out actually and I was glad to burn steps just in Lisa's backyard.  And anyway, I cruised through all the reports that were due today. I wanted to work on my presentation for the CCALAC symposium actually but having Johnnie and the dog back severely limits my ability to concentrate and focus. Even if Johnnie was happy and content simply watching the Octonauts again. It really IS different to have him in the house. Not that I'm complaining actually. I think it's no small miracle that I pull off what I do pull off on a daily basis. Tonight I had him do a video wishing my mom a Happy Birthday. It's not until tomorrow and I noticed on FB that Grace and fam already had her over last weekend. She's not going to remember that I did it, because her narrative I think is that I am not such a good son. And maybe she's right. But I'm trying. This is one of those things I still have to do a deep dive on and do some clearing and emotionally cleaning and basically do some self-forgiveness on. I remind myself that everything is ME pushed out and if I am feeling some guilt at any level, it is merely a program I have mistakenly bought into. And so it was that Monday evening was really routine after a brief blip in the middle of the day. We were even back to making Johnnie penne pasta chicken noodle for his dinner and me eating my beef stew which turned out much better than before. I was thinking that those Lisa blips are no more than a little change of focus is all and if I don't judge anything and anyone, then it is merely me getting Johnnie a whole lot earlier than usual. And THAT in itself is preferable anyway. Early night for all, a good night's rest on Monday. It's all good.