Sort of A Tank Day, Lisa Drama

I got up this Friday morning buoyed by the fact that I was alone in my bed. I must admit that having Johnnie on one side of me on the bed and having the dog on the other side was pretty nice too and something I got used to during the week, it's also good to balance that with sleeping alone every once in a while and not having to get up early and whisk Johnnie to shower and get him breakfast... or take the dog outside quickly lest he pee or poop on my bed. And she's only been around a couple of weeks LOL. Still I really didn't have anything urgent on my plate today since I had done a lot of the heavy lifting work-wise the first part of this week. And so the goal this morning was to get out and get to the laundromat to get my comforter and sheet washed. And the bath mats too. Those I know the dog peed on during the week. I wanted to make sure with the bedsheets considering she had slept next to me even if it was just one night. And so by the time I got done with breakfast and headed out to the laundromat on National, it was almost 11 AM already! Still i had plenty of time to get my 2 huge loads done by lunch I thought. And i occupied myself otherwise by doing steps while waiting for the wash load to get done. Pretty good idea considering it was such a nice day out. Warm and spring like. So much so that by the time I got about 1000 steps in I was already working up a bit of a sweat. I tried to kill 2 birds with one stone too. After the wash load I put everything in 2 dryers and then headed to Whole Foods right down the street to pick up some teriyaki salmon for lunch. And so that was pretty much the morning right there. Spent at the laundromat. But well worth it considering how clean everything is now. I will be better prepared for the dog next week too once I make it out to Target to buy some pet stuff. The last thing for today was the monthly birthday party for the FRB via Zoom. I posted a picture of us and we actually had a lot of laughs with the game which was a scavenger hunt. Kind of reminded me of Johnnie's class games LOL.

Anyway after that meeting, work week was done! Would it have been too much to ask to have a quiet Friday evening even if it WAS to be spent at Lisa's house watching Johnnie while she practiced piano? After all, we did just that a week ago and it turned out fine. I forget of course that the wild card is always and forever be LISA. My intentions were good I thought... I bought steak, grilled it at my apartment barbecue. That takes out eating Lisa's leftover food. I would rather eat MY food. That thought pattern is probably something I should have watched. I brought penne pasta leftovers for Johnnie's soup, leftover rice from the teriyaki salmon at lunch. So food was taken care of. But I should have realized the second I walked through the door that Lisa was not in a good state.  We made it through getting whatever she needed to prepare all done, which was very VERY minimal since I brought the food and it was already cooked. All she had to do was sautee some spinach.  She got overwhelmed  when I made Johnnie's bowl of soup the way I usually do at the apartment... heat up the broth, put the pasta in. Johnnie eats it up. THAT threw off Lisa believe it or not. Which should have made me realize she was on overwhelm and that something was out of control and put her in that state. By dinner time she was talking about Eusebio and all his faults, her office and all the stuff going on, Nikki and how she's not performing and throwing off the office. She was in one of her states that used to make me just shut down.  Does she not realize this WAS the reason I wanted to get away from our relationship? She actually got through about an hour of piano but it only made her mood worse. When she yelled at Johnnie that made ME just snap back to make sure she realized all that yelling was not necessary. At this point all I wanted to do was get away. And I should have taken Johnnie with me because Lisa clearly had lost it. This was her state prior to every single one of our most of our biggest fights. Only this time, she couldn't blame me. Oh she tried to. I overheard her muttering about "me being not that much help".  Nothing I could do to help her I know. Just get out of there and realize all that drama was ME pushing something out. And it is THAT which I needed to address. I went home and just tried to distract myself with the movie BLISS on Amazon... strangely about an alternate reality.  I knew it was tied to whatever I needed to do  right then. I tried to quiet my mind the best I could, knowing I would need to be back at Lisa's first thing in the morning. At least I could get some sleep.