Super Bowl Sunday

The one thing that has changed all year due to the pandemic was sports. We're all still not allowed to attend games, at least not in LA. But we still had an NBA championship didn't we (the Lakers won). We still had a World Series didn't we (the Dodgers won) and so how could we not have a Super Bowl Sunday? It's the biggest sports event in this country. And so today IS Super Bowl Sunday. Normally we'd all be watching the game at some sort of party but not this year. In fact when I thought of the SuperBowl this year somehow a memory of 2018 came up and that was the year we went to Legoland and then stopped at a restaurant in OC for dinner and that's where I watched the end of the SuperBowl. I had a bad taste in my mouth regarding that memory.... it wasn't positive. Maybe it was the echo of Lisa's antics last Friday that brought it up, meaning I still have some more emotional cleaning and clearing to do. Today it's also simply Sunday golf and we're at Altadena this morning. And I reminded myself yet again to simply relax particularly during the moment I'm making the shot. What is on my mind the few seconds before that is what determines what happens and that is when I need to be most focused on my desired outcome. That and of course a general focus that I'm going to have a good game today as well. That I'm going to hit my shots solid and true and that I'm going to have fun today. Of course what actually does happen can be wildly different. The thing is that I know I need to stop thinking and let the flow take over. I did that pretty much on the first hole. Ok shot off the tee, great 2nd shot to the green, short putt and a make on my par putt. That was EXACTLY how I wanted to play. Unfortunately that would end up being my best hole, my only really good hole for the day. And that's because I allowed myself to get rushed and I did not focus enough on the shot outcomes. Particularly, I followed that par with a horrendous 2nd hole. The first tee shot was fine, but doing mental forensics, my 2nd shot ended up in the bunker. I missed it that badly. The bunker was less than 20 yards away and to the right. Man the program of lack of self-confidence is strong. And clearly needs to work to clean up. I know I was focusing on missing instead, which is exactly what I got. Instead of rehashing the bad holes and the bad shots, I did have a nice Hole 6 where I hit a bogey 5 on a pretty long hole. And on Hole 8 I landed the iron off the tee just 40 yards from the hole right in front. Too bad I hit 4 shots from there even after getting on in 2.  A 3-putt would do that for you. And then forget about the last hole where I kept hitting trees. Sigh. Oh well at least it turned out to be a beautiful day.  

I got lunch from Crimson today, even though I was home by 11:45. I obviously did not make any Super Bowl plans, not even to watch it. I mean it was compelling... Brady the GOAT, QB in his 40s against the young gun Mahomes. Felt like a Hollywood script actually, something out of a Twilight Zone episode. But really unless the Rams made it like 2 years ago, I wasn't all that interested in either team. If we were at someone's house, like we used to go to Costa Mesa back in the day, i would look forward to eating crap really... chips, nachos, beer. And today I sort of did that. I made myself some taco meat from the leftover ground beef I had still and ate soft tacos. That became dinner really as it turned out. That and some kibbe from Trader Joe's. So no stew tonight LOL. In fact I spent this evening actually doing the grocery shopping that I should have done yesterday or Friday and didn't. Still I would spend my Super Bowl Sunday evening watching Tom Brady win yet another Super Bowl a testament to keeping himself in good shape and keeping his body feeling good a la LeBron, still dominating NBA games at 36. Hey I didn't run my first marathon until I was in my 40s already right? Why does age get to dictate what one can accomplish? That and I ended up watching Aquaman from 2018 which I had never watched before. Funny why I'm seemingly stuck in a 2018 moment today. For sure I need to wash away all that negative stuck energy from that year huh?! LOL. Interaction with Lisa all weekend probably reminding me of that. Including this morning when she called me on my way to golf. I guess she had rang out the security  detectors because her shower was so hot the detectors thought there was a fire. She was trying to see if I got a call too. LOL. As if I still lived there. Like in 2018. Hmmm.  I think I'm going to need to clear those last few months I was at Maplewood still. Make sure I'm still going forward. After all, isn't living in a new condo in my near term future yet again? When I manifest it? <smiles>/