About money: I had an impromptu self hypnosis session this morning courtesy of Marisa Peer on a MindValley youtube video. It was about money blocks and how to remove them. And so I half-did the exercise while doing Candy Crush. And I still managed to go to alpha and bring myself back to the time when I was a kid and I saw a scene with my dad making a bet on horse races. And I had a perception my dad was a gambler. Could that be why I have this fear of losing money? And then I went to a scene where I was asking for a Christmas present from an aunt in America. I wanted an electric car. I didn't get one of course and maybe there were some emotions related to that too. Both scenes contributing to present-day abundance and money blocks. And so I gave myself an auto-suggestion. Hey I was just a kid. I didn't know any better. And now I don't have to have those beliefs anymore. Because I do know better. I can be/do/have anything I want. I already deserve it and all I have to do is allow myself the experience. I don't need to ask for permission, I just have to GIVE myself permission. And that part of me that is fearful that something bad will happen? I just have to remind that part of me that I can simply CHOOSE to have nothing bad happen. And for everything to happen easily. And that I give myself permission for that too.
About Johnnie: The thing was that all these things I had picked up inadvertently as a kid I now have to apply because now I'M the one saying these things to Johnnie. Last night he didn't get the ice cream that he wanted and he threw a little fit and then punched and kicked me. That behavior rattled me. Is this how people learn to become violent? I did lay down the boundary that this was unacceptable behavior. And at the same time I now realize I also have to provide him with an outlet to express his feelings. Without shouting, without yelling, without hitting, without bullying. I simply needed to ask him what he was feeling and then talk them through with him. I also realize he has a ton of energy and I need to make sure he has an outlet for THAT as well.
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